So., what a horrible subject to write about..............
But here goes:
On the 23rd of April 2015 I had my third miscarriage over a short period of 12 months. How does things like this happen to us. We are loved by the Most High, we are His beloved daughters.
As I was waiting on the bed at the Emergency section of the Hospital, sobbing like a baby, I immediately knew, I lost the baby. I instinctively knew, just knew, and I didn't know how to explain this to my absolute blessing of a husband, standing next to me, trying to console me. I think its only when you have had a pregnancy and a miscarriage when you instinctively know when something is wrong, something is horribly wrong.
Having been checked out and confirmed that a procedure needs to take place the next morning to remove the "fetus" I feel empty. I feel depleted, tired, exhausted and old. What is wrong with me? Has my womb dried up, died, stopped working ????.....
In my head I'm calling out to God,
why......!!!!!!!!!???????????? Why.....!!!!!!!!!?????????
Its nearly a month later, and I am better, but I don't have the correct answer or comfort yet, but I believe that He loves me, I am His beloved daughter. I know that I will survive this, and that only Blessings will come out of this.
Rom 8:28
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